Winter Slumber Confession – Why I Was Dead in Social Media

Photo by Matt Sy

Throughout December 2015 to the beginning of January 2016, I received a lot of comments and messages regarding my absence in the virtual world. “You should be more active” or “Where have you been?” “You disappeared on us. Where did you go?” I finally decided it’s time for my confession.

Photo by Matt Sy

Here Is My Confession:

I was feeling depressed and was recovering from physical pain. I was in a horrific car accident in the end of November 2015. My car was completely totaled after I was T-boned by a pick-up truck; I was struck on my side of the car and lost consciousness. I was not able to walk freely for weeks. I was in pain, I lost my new car, but I was feeling blessed as hell.

Dress by Zara

On my way to the emergency room, the paramedics said, “You’re an extremely lucky girl.”

I did not break a single bone, nor did I lose a single drop of blood. What I did lose was my old perspective on life…

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Another Confession

As I was recovering, I noticed I had trouble concentrating and remembering things. I would suddenly and randomly feel extremely uneasy, and I felt dizzy at times. Despite it, I brushed it off like it was nothing… Until last week, I was dizzy with a headache for over 24 hours, so my family took me to the hospital. Turns out I was diagnosed with post-concussive syndrome. It is a head injury where symptoms show after some time of the accident. Good news is that my CT scans were clear and there is no permanent damage, but I will continue to struggle with my symptoms for a few months to possibly a year. And of course, my neck and back won’t be the same as before.

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Yuki’s Back

In spite of this, I honestly feel very blessed to be alive. I feel blessed to be able to walk and breathe on my own. To see my loved ones and tell them I love them. To notice who was there for me and who supports me in different ways.

Photo by Matt Sy

I feel like God or an angel protected me, and gave me another chance to live, gave me more time to love who I love, and continue to pursue my dreams.

Photo taken in Lake Arrowhead by Matt Sy

My Purpose of the Confession

I am not telling this to you for sympathy or attention. My reason for publicly revealing my personal experience or confession is to hope that others will be cautious, aware, be grateful of what they have, and to simply live their life. Don’t be careless, but live. Be who you are. Don’t live a day with a single regret. Your life can change in an instant, or worse, possibly end. So be courageous. Lastly, be thankful.

What I’m Wearing

Plaid Dress by Zara (find similar one here)

Scarf and Beanie by Urban Outfitters

Jacket by Nasty Gal

Bag by Steve Madden

Boots by Aldo

 Thank You

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Also, please tell me below, what do you appreciate most? Do you have a confession you can share with me? I won’t judge, I promise. <3